Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Books I need to re-read because I hated them at first

I feel like I can be a forgiving person when I want to be. And I love books. So that's what this post is about :)

I went through my Goodreads reviews and noticed that I haven't really given that many books a rating below 3 stars. I was curious to see which books I gave a rating that I consider sub-par. And I am giving myself a challenge to re-read some of these books to see if I still hate them. It turns out that some of them are books I read a long time ago--maybe I'll like them now? Some are books I couldn't seem to get through.

I hate the idea of an author spending years of their life creating and writing a book, only for me to hate it. So I'm giving some of them a second chance--a few don't deserve a second chance quite yet, though ;) I don't even remember why I didn't like most of them.

These aren't in any particular order:

The Da Vinci Code, by Dan Brown. I read this in 2010, so not that long ago. I wasn't impressed. It was much better suited to a movie. The only two things I found redeeming were the fact that it was a quick exciting read, and Silas. He was basically the only realistic character, even though he was the most extreme. I won't be re-reading this anytime in the next quarter century.

 I actually really like my review I wrote on Goodreads, important parts highlighted


"I honestly and sincerely started reading this book with an open mind. I began with the knowledge that some people love it, and some people hate it. I entered the world of the Da Vinci Code with the expectation that I would be entertained, and perhaps a little enlightened on a few things. Instead, I was directed to every point the author wanted to make, and bashed over the head with it in each chapter. Dan Brown repeats himself OVER and OVER, as if I can't remember what I was just told in the chapter before, or heaven forbid, two chapters ago. I stopped counting how many times he informed me that the "Rose" had roots to the "rose" on a map. I felt like Dan Brown was in charge of my reading experience, not myself. By taking so much control, he limited my imagination, and limited the personal experience I could have had with the book 

On top of that, I think Dan Brown is a little close-minded himself. The moral of his story seems to be that we need to open our eyes to the truth of history and the symbols and true meanings of things around us. BUT, he completely dismisses any other possibilities except for those "truths" he presents. 

I found his style very "young adult." There's a pattern, identify a secret, let the characters talk about it without informing the reader, and then inform the reader in the next chapter. Seems to me to be the simplest form of mystery writing. 

I came away feeling the most sympathy and connection with Silas, surprisingly. I felt no connection to Robert Langdon, and hardly any for Sophie. Silas only wanted to get out of his hole. He was abused as a child, forced into a life he should never have had to experience, and miraculously rescued by a good person (no matter his religion). He started a new life, with a new family and purpose, that no one can presume to call evil, if a little misguided and sensational. He was taken advantage of, manipulated. And he lost everything. All that remained of him at the end of the story was a white body lying in the park. He deserved more." 


 Goodnight Moon, by Margaret Wise Brown. Yeah, I know, it's a kids' book. But oh my heck, it gets a lot of hype! Last year, I discovered that I'd actually never read it. After checking it out, I was unimpressed. I don't remember exactly what it's about, but I remember a "What? That's it?" feeling. Even for a kid book.

Next time I get the chance, I'm going to take 2 minutes and read it again. I'm sure there's something good about it. I mean, kids love it, right?
 Fire of the Covenant, by Gerald N. Lund. Oh my. When I was 12, I read the entire Work and the Glory series and fell in love. (That's another series I need to re-read because I've been feeling its memory being cheapened in my mind, and I wonder if it's really as good as I thought when I was a Beehive.) I picked this one up off my mom's shelf in high school, and could only get a few chapters in. I don't have an official rating of this book, since I barely got started but I've always assumed it must not be that great if it couldn't hook me. I think I might have been bored with pioneers at the time. Lund is a celebrated author; I'm sure it's worth something. I'm going to give it another chance.
 Great Expectations, by Charles Dickens. I know a few people who would be shocked off their rockers to hear that I didn't enjoy the first quarter of this book either. Last year I honestly TRIED. I tried my very hardest to read this book but it was like walking through thick mud. I'm not sure if I'm ready to give it another go yet, but I will. Eventually. I'm not usually one to get annoyed with the "classic" or old style of writing. But this book... I swear Charles Dickens was trying to annoy people by not writing coherently. I've heard so many people rave about the characters... So I must be missing something.
 The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, by Mark Twain. I'm ashamed that I don't like this book. I read it in high school and ever since it has been my go-to least favorite book. I'm now foggy on the details, but I remember disliking the accents, and racism, and simplicity of the characters. I knew, and I know, those things are basically what makes the book infamous... I think I might have been uncomfortable with the subject material, maybe? I'm ready to try this one again and see if I still hate it.
 A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, by Betty Smith. Yet another book I read in high school. I actually have hardly any recollection of what this book is actually about-- just know I wasn't a fan. Looking back, though, I think I might have disliked it because I disliked my English teacher at the time... She was a treat, let me tell you. I'm surprised any of us went on to enjoy reading after being in her class. Poor woman.
The Witches, by Roald Dahl. I read this book in elementary. And as far as an 8 year old review goes, I didn't like it. I only remember one scene in the whole book, where a kid is sneaking up on the witches in a big meeting. I remember hearing that all my friends loved the book, but when I read it, I didn't understand why anyone liked it at all. I felt like they liked it for the gross art rather than the actual content.
 Against the Storm, by Gaye Hicyilmaz. This was the very first REAL chapter book I ever purchased. Actually, my mom helped me buy it at the school's book fair. I don't think I was ready for it--as my mom sincerely tried to tell me. I wouldn't listen, though, and insisted I could read it. I tried multiple times, once even in high school. I've always been curious if it's actually good.
 Death of a Salesman, by Arthur Miller. No idea why I didn't like this. We even read the play and watched a movie with John Malcovich in high school. I'm looking forward to giving it another shot.
 Monkey Bridge, by Lan Cao. Whew! A book I actually read and remember why I don't like it :) Here's my review from Goodreads with the important parts highlighted. I won't be reading this again for a very long time.

  The first half of the book is like reading a really convoluted dream sequence. I couldn't even tell if the main character was male or female for like 30 pages. Everything is from the point of view of the main character, Mai, who is a Vietnamese immigrant in her senior year of high school. On top of the hardships that go along with immigration, she's dealing with her mother's failing physical and mental health, the regular mother-daughter misunderstandings, as well as the sorrow of an unidentified event leaving her only remaining family member in Vietnam. 

If I was going to rate this book on IDEAS alone, I would give it 3, maybe 4, stars. But the organization and flow of the content is frustrating, slow at points, and jumbled. And although the book was written in first person, I felt like I got to know Mai's mother by her journal entries better than I got to know Mai through her narrative. 

I recommend refreshing your memory on the vietnam war before reading this book. You'll be a lot less confused once you do. The book doesn't remind you itself who was on who's side, or the history and timeline in plain terms. So be prepared to remind yourself of who fought the war, what each side stood for, the major battles, and the geography of Vietnam. 

Beyond the organizational and structural items that bothered me, by the time I finished the book, I found Mai's main conflict to be satisfying. Throughout the book, she is confused about how to interact with her mother. This is in the normal way mothers and daughters have a hard time understanding each other's goals, desires, history, and life. But there's the added conflict between Mai and her mother that her mother is stuck in traditional Vietnamese ways, while they are living in America and Mai is willing to adapt. They are growing much further apart than I believe they would have if Mai had grown up only in Vietnam. In the beginning, Mai is resistant to her mother's ways and lifestyle centered around Karma. But by the end of the book, although there is a bitter end in some ways, Mai learns to appreciate her mother's ways and apply them to her life in ways she can accept. While I don't agree that her mother HAD to do the things she did in order to give Mai a Karmatic "fresh start," I can appreciate Mai's appreciation, because she needed to learn her mother's heart. There are often very visual metaphores and analogies that I found quite impressive. 

If someone asked me if they should read this book, I would probably say yes. But more in a "go for it and see what you think" way. I would recommend that they stick around for the end, and try to read the book in 1 or 2 sittings to not get dragged down. Everything comes together in the end.


 The BFG, by Roald Dahl. Always said I hated this book, but can never remember why. I'll try this one again soon.
 Sense and Sensibility, by Jane Austen. I think I got turned off of Jane Austen because all her books are basically the same. I really liked Pride and Prejudice, then sort of liked Emma, then got bored with Sense and Sensibility. If I'm ever interested in giving it a second chance, I'll probably just read an Austen book I've never read before to see if it's similar. Here's my Goodreads review:

"All I could think the whole time was, "Have I read this before?" So much like Pride and Prejudice, and even like the beginning of Emma so far. Maybe I'm not sensitive enough to discern the subtleties? I was liking it in the beginning, getting to know the characters, discovering Marianne wasn't going to be with Willoughby, and that Elinor was losing her "true love." But it felt like it dragged on in the middle. There was waaay too much detail about the depression Marianne fell into for Willoughby. I liked Pride and Prejudice. Why didn't I like this one? I wonder if I went back and read P and P again, if I'd like it a second time... I sort of feel like I've discovered what Jane Austen's style is like, and now I've read them all. I think I'll give Emma a chance and keep reading though... I didn't feel like anything was a shock, even the end when Edward really isn't married, I feel like I already knew. Maybe I've seen the movie and just can't remember. 

I wish Edward would have been explained better. And why Elinor likes him. I didn't even know she liked him until like half way through, and then it was hard to believe she cared. It ended with a happy ending, but not the happy ending it could have been if we would have REALLY seen Elinor suffering. She would have been fine without him. She was ready to move on. 

I don't know if it was just this book, or if I'm really beginning to be turned off by Jane Austen, but it really started to get on my nerves how often Austen doesn't specify which "she" she's talking about. Or which "Miss Whoever." She'll bring up a character you've never met before and talk about them as if you should know who they are, and then explain who they are a page later. Normally I love the style from this time period, but there seemed to be a lot of talking about nothing in this book."


Water for Elephants, by Sara Gruen. My book club read this over the summer, and I couldn't get in to it. I'll admit, it may partially be because I'm kind of annoyed by how much attention Robert Pattinson gets in the media for being Edward in Twilight (don't get me wrong, Twilight has its place in the world). I'm just super annoyed with how much hype book-movies get when they pick the right actor or when the book was a thriller with little real worth while content. Twilight is one of those, sure. Same with Hunger Games. I'll also admit that I was immediately turned off by the language in the book and by the naked lady dancers and such. I'm not one to be incredibly particular about things like that all the time--but it didn't seem to flow with the book. I think I need a little extra time before coming back to this book. The movie needs to not be so popular and I need time to forget all my negative feelings.



Well, that's it. What about you? Do you feel similarly about any of these books? Think I should give any of them a second chance? Do you have any books you should give a second chance??

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

On Valentine's.

I forgot: Yesterday was Valentine's Day. This was the 8th Valentine's Day Trevor and I have celebrated together. It's super weird to be at the point where we are starting to forget what we've done on each year. In two short years, we will celebrate 10 years together. What will we do when we're so old? What will we have to show for it? It seems like not much, I'm afraid. Hopefully by then we'll have at least the idea of an offspring.

Although, I suppose we can't discount our relationship as it is, even though our lives aren't quite what we want yet. I always knew I'd love Trevor more and more as time went on, but I don't think we can ever fully anticipate things like that. We're both mean, selfish, and lazy. And I think it's horrible of God and the universe that we all have to choose one person to see all our worst parts for our whole lives. Practically nothing is a secret when you're married. Despite all that, I'm still thankful for Trevor. I've been glad to see him pursue his dreams, whatever they may be at the time; I've been glad to try our hand at life together. And even though in the grand scheme of things, we may have made life harder on each other by being married so young, and encouraging each other to make unsound money decisions, it still feels worth it to be able to love him.

I don't believe in soul mates, or that we're destined to only find true love with one person in the whole world. I believe we make our own happiness. And Trevor has helped me make mine.

Um, PS: Last night I made a delicious chicken cordon bleu with proscuitto and baby swiss, with uber creamy mashed potatoes and asparagus. I'm drooling for more!

Eye problems, and more church.

Mmkay, so a couple of things. Regarding two drastically different topics.

I have some sort of eye freak-out going on, and I can't see very well. I've had really dry eyes for like, a couple of months. Especially at night. I'll wake up in the middle of the night, and my eyes will be ridiculously dry--so dry I can barely open them. I'm a contacts person. I've worn them almost every day for like, 13 years, or something like that. I wear my glasses when my eyes get tired or whatever.

Over the weekend, my eyes started getting more and more dry, and started to sting like crazy even during the day time, and especially when I wasn't wearing my contacts. It started to get a bit unbearable on Sunday/Monday. I almost couldn't drive to work on Monday, but I suffered through, and luckily I didn't get in any accidents. Monday night, I basically spent the whole evening turning off lights where ever I went, keeping my eyes shut, and holding cold cloths over my eyes. I tried some basic dry eyes and irritation reliever eye drops, but they didn't seem to help.

Yesterday, I was trying so hard to function, but by the time I got out driving, I could barely keep my eyes open long enough to see to turn into the closest parking lot on my way to work. Needless to say, I sobbed for 5 minutes before hysterically calling Trevor to tell him I was going blind having a hard time seeing. Luckily, my brother-in-law was at home for the morning and he rescued me, took me to the eye doctor, and suffered my eyes crying involuntarily for a couple of hours.

Turns out, I have an infection that isn't really an infection that has caused infiltrates on my corneas. Apparently my white blood cells are gathering to fight something off, causing my corneas to feel scratched. It sounds to me like it's one of those diagnosis they give for all sorts of generic problems, but whatev. I got an antibiotic eye drop and was told to use an extra moisturizing drop too. They said it can be caused by dryness, pollution, or sickness, any and all kinds.

Whatever the reason, I'm glad my eyes aren't burning my face off any more. I'm still having a hard time with light, and my vision is still a bit blurry, but I was able to drive to work this morning. Thank goodness for the overcast sky today!

I have to wear my glasses for at least a week, and it might be recurring :/ Idunno how I feel about that.

Um, also, I went to Relief Society on Sunday. It was okay. I sat in the very front row, and it felt like I was alone with the teacher, and that actually helped. I was less distracted by being able to see everyone in the room. I also attended my ward's New Member meeting, so there's no turning back now. The ward leadership is now aware of me and my woes.

I've been reading The Book of Mormon during breakfast the last couple weeks, and it actually hasn't felt like a chore. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you want to.

In church we focused on the two "great commandments" specifically laid out in Matthew 22:


 37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
 38 This is the first and great commandment.
 39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.


And in my study, I've been feeling uplifted as I read Mormon and Ether. That, all by itself is kind of surprising, since both books are basically all about generations of people who fall away. In Ether 12:9 it says:

 Wherefore, ye may also have hope, and be partakers of the gift, if ye will but have faith.

Combined, I feel a great sense of ease. My small decisions to do right are more easily done, and I feel ready to think about other people besides myself. It seems like in a matter of weeks I've gotten over my fear of serving extra, having a calling, participating. I started to feel incredibly sorry for leaving my ward without a pianist--while I"m grateful for the sister's effort and time it takes to plunk out the melody of an opening hymn, I can't help but feel like I've been selfish to withhold something I can so easily offer. I want to hurry and get to know some of these people so I can stop feeling so isolated, and do my part.

I'm determined to be less contentious at home, less quick to judge; I'm basically failing at this so far. And I'm sure Trevor finds me incredibly hypocritical and changeable when I forget. And I'm trying to let my faith take over in my life. Believing in God isn't about being certain. It's about giving a feeling a chance. I'm only able to be fully aware of how deep my faith runs when I allow myself to feel it, and when I do, it feels like I'm rewarded with extra bits of goodness. I still have lengths and bounds to go before I'll really be used to everything, and probably eons before I'm back on top of all my responsibilities. But my foot is in the door--no, maybe my leg.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

Trevor was interviewed!

Trevor was interviewed by a fellow-blogger! Go here to read it. He's a pretty funny dude. That's why I married him.

It's been really neat to read all of Trevor's interviews of aspiring and published authors on his blog. But it's even neat-er to read one about him!

We're getting ready to go to another writing convention on Thursday, Life the Universe and Everything (LTUE), it's called. So I'm sure he'll have a bunch more new stuff to talk about soon. His current book is picking up pace. I can't wait until I can share it with tons of people (and see my name on the dedication page, obviously)! He's always so hard on himself--which is a good thing in some ways; he's able to catch a lot of mistakes and improve things on his own a lot. But he deserves a pat on the back for how hard he's worked on writing this year, and for actually making an interesting and entertaining book!

P.S. I'm only mostly kidding about it being dedicated to me.

Monday, February 06, 2012

Vodnik by Bryce Moore [ARC]

Hi guys! Something amazing and totally not normal happened to us last week! We won a contest for an Advance Reader's Copy of a new book called Vodnik by Bryce Moore. Bryce is a brand spankin' new author with some roots in Utah; Trevor and I meet him last year at Conduit and have been anxiously awaiting his book release this March. We were both impressed with Bryce's style and the amount/quality of information he gave at the convention last year, so we've also been following his blog. He's also a librarian--cool, eh?

The book is in the mail, so we don't have it yet. But I'm getting pretty excited! Trevor is also working on an interview with the author over on his blog that should be out right around the book's release date.

We never win anything! So this is a pretty amazing win :) 

Here's a little blurb about the book from Bryce's blog:


When Tomas and his family move back to Slovakia after a devastating fire, Tomas doesn't remember the folktale creatures he befriended as a child. 
But they remember him and his Roma family, and they’re not as friendly as they once were. Suddenly Tomas is in over his head, and he’ll have to strike a bargain with Death herself in order to put things right.
Amidst a backdrop of anti-Roma sentiment, he and his cousin must match wits with myths, and uncover the secrets of Tomas's past before their own futures become forfeit.


Death herself; isn't that neat? You all should check it out when it comes out! I'll be sure to let you know how it is :)

Friday, February 03, 2012

No iPhone: Week One

It's been seven days (that's one week, folks) since we removed our data plan from our iPhones. Here's my summary:


  1. I still get to use my iPhone as an iPod; this means I can still listen to all my music and play apps as much as I want. (Thank goodness, because I read a lot of books on there throughout the year, and play a butt load of Sudoku/Bejeweled/Angry Birds/Spongebob Diner Dash, etc)
  2. I can do EVERYTHING else on the iPhone (except call and text) when I have WiFi--which I don't at work, but I do at home.
  3. I can still iMessage other iPhone users when I have WiFi.
  4. I only had to print off one map from MapQuest on my home computer.
  5. It only took me five days to figure out how to work this ancient voice mail system, and predictive text.
  6. We saved $60/mo (which, combined with a miracle of a tax return, we're using to pay off a loan 4 years early at the end of this year).
  7. I have to lug around a second cell phone for calls and texts. I'll admit it, I thought this was going to be ridiculously inconvenient. But it turns out, I don't really get that many calls and texts. I get calls from Trevor when he leaves work. I get texts from my mom once every week or two. Other than that... nope. 
Future down-sides:

  • When I do finally end up needing my GPS, I most likely won't have it since WiFi is generally not available while driving. Have I lost the ability to find places on my own? Guess we'll see.
  • I won't have instant access to my bank accounts unless I go somewhere with WiFi.
  • I can't instantly check my email or Facebook for personal or business messages... unless I have WiFi.
  • TEXTING is horrific without a qwerty (that's fun to type) keyboard; I will be texting even less and with less proper grammar/spelling/punctuation.
  • It's annoying to keep track of two phones' battery lives. Although, the new phone only needs charging every three days or so, since I never use it.
Basically:
  • I'm in limbo between cell phone use and iPhone use.
  • I've regressed about 5 years into the past, technology wise.
  • I'm less connected.
  • I hate being one of those people with a regular cell phone almost more than I hate the lack of ease. (Don't judge me even though I judge you.)
  • I'm still sad.
  • It's worth it.